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Best Chocolate Alcohol Drink EVER

Jul. 5th, 2010 | 11:51 pm
mood: accomplished

It is freakishly hot outside, and I was having a chocolate craving.  Still, I am watching my calories, trying to be good so that I can indulge a bit on my vacation, guilt free (I will not rest until I've eaten British clotted cream). 

What's a girl to do?   I remember that I had bought some sugar-free Nestle's hot chocolate mix, for those occasions where I want to have chocolate, but not break my calorie budget.......................but drinking a hot beverage sounds taxing.  So, I came up with this:

1 oz godiva chocolate liquor           = 103 calories
1 package sugar free chocolate    =   57 calories
1/2 c low calorie, vanilla soymilk   =   40 calories
2 *big* handfuls of ice ..................... priceless

And on the fourth ingredient, she rested, and it was good. 

Throw this into a vita mix.................ZOMG 

This turned into a decadent, frothy, smooth, chocolatey party in my mouth.   This made HUGE servings, enough for TWO people, as it frothed so much.   200 calories fit within my calorie budget for the rest of the evening.  

I will be making this again, hense the post to my LJ.   


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Dreams and musings

Jul. 4th, 2010 | 05:14 pm

Last night, I drempt that I was hunting on my farm in rural, North Dakota.  The dreamscape was cold, snow-filled, and somber, i.e. totally normal for North Dakota.  I shot at a menagerie of critters: moose, deer, and other random animals, hitting some, but never actually killing any.  The moose was a particularly exciting quarry as they are fairly rare in North Dakota, so I rushed to my grandfather to tell him the news.  He was in a cockpit-type structure near the Shanty (an ancient claim-shack that an ancestor lived in when they first homesteaded), and we reveled in the excitement of the moose-sighting.  It was good to be near him, but there was sadness in our interaction, as he was semi-trapped in the cockpit.  It could spin in the snow, though, which seemed entertaining.  In dream-land, I was transported to some land near my family's farm (a slough by the Hellerud farm), and I found a hawk that was injured (it had been shot).  This was a special Hungarian-American halk, as the Hungarian hawks are tamed and are good for falconry-related hunting, and some had escaped and interbred with North Dakotan hawks.  I scooped the hawk into my arms, and proceeded too walk home (the Hellerud land is about an hour's walk to my family farm).  My Uncle Mike, a game warden, drove by in a pickup and offered me a ride, and I accepted.  The bird morphed into a beautiful goose-hawk chimera (the neck of a goose, the the feathers and head of a hawk).  He chided me a bit, as he might have to report the exotic bird as being harmed (i.e. I might not get to keep it).  He also reminded me that grandpa had been dead for some time.  The irony of this is that Uncle Mike has been dead for at least 5 years. 

When/if I turn senile in my old age, I will dream of North Dakota. 


I spent New Years eve and Christmas alone, this year, for the first time.  This is the first year of my life that I have spent the 4th of July, alone.  I blame Pfizer, but only half-heartedly, as I enjoy being a hermit. 

I did have holiday plans: I attended a super-awesome 70s party, last night.  There were scooby-doo van moments, 70s boze and wine, 70s finger-foods, 70s music, a disco ball, yearbooks, and people who had actually been born *in* and/or lived through, the 70s.   My outfit consisted of a peasant blouse and a long, red skirt with simple, white running stitches along the seams, platform shoes, and big sunglasses.  So, costumes, friends, EtOH, and fireworks............. all in all, a good time. 


My garden is producing the first green beans of the season.  It's tempting to pick all the baby beans and turn them into a cute salad, but if they grow for 5 more days or so, I will have *mountains* of green beans to enjoy.   Today, I harvested my first egg plant and the first two english cucumbers.  I plan on living off of sunomono salad this summer.   *happiness*


I was pulled over by a cop last night, on my way home from the party, 2 minutes away from the safety of my driveway.  I rolled down my drivers-side window, turned off my truck, and waited.  The cop opened up my passenger door and shined his flashlight into my truck, and said, "Did you know that you are driving a vehicle whose  tags have expired?"    Busted.  Yep, I'm totally guilty.  And I told the cop as much.  Funny enough, I had listened to a chapter from The 7 Habits of Highly Effective People earlier that day, and I think it actually helped me interact with the cop (admit when you are wrong, humble yourself, and let the person in authority "be the good guy").  Anyways, he asked me to produce my registration, and I clumsily dug through my glove box, looking for it.   I couldn't find it.   I was trembling from fear and hoped that he didn't notice.   He probably did.  I said, "Well, at least I can give you my license and proof of insurance."    Looking at my license, he asks me, "Is your last name Sweedish?"  I say, "No, Norwegian."    He walks back to his car, saying, "Well, let me check to see if you are wanted for any crimes."  That seemed positive. 

A short time later, he returns and sternly says he would let me go without a ticket, but that I should take care of my registration this week. 

He was a very attractive cop. 

I am taking care of my vehicle registration, this week.  


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Long Time, No Post

May. 17th, 2010 | 10:41 pm
mood: tired tired

I haven't posted in a long time.   Here is a random smattering of things in my head:


I am grateful to my sister, because she still loves me, despite when I show her my ugliness. 


I am looking for a treadmill.  I really believe if I have one in my house, I would work out more faithfully.  I've been making it to the gym only once or twice a week for the last few months.  If I used 5 months of a gym membership would pay for a used treadmill, easily. 


I am still having night terrors.  There was an asian chick staying in the loft above my apartment, and she heard me scream, and her response to me woke me up (so I remembered the episode).  I think people should do experiments on my brain. 


Frack, I need to cook a tuna steak before I go to bed.  Sigh. 

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Wisdom Teeth

Sep. 13th, 2009 | 06:08 pm

I had my wisdom teeth removed on Friday.  I thought it might be a more terrible experience than it was, but it has been easy.  I didn't think I needed pain medicine yesterday, but I took it anyways, just in case.  I didn't take any today, though I did take my antibiotics as well as my anti-swelling medicine. 

My jaw is slightly sore and swollen on the left side, and I can't open my mouth all the way.  I ate a piece of salmon as my first solid food in a few days.  I have been eating fruit juices, pudding, and stuffing.  It is strange feeling the stitches in my mouth. 

This was the first time I've been under the influlence of any kind of anesthetic.  I sat in the dentist's chair, and the dentist put a tiny drop of an analgesic under my skin.  Then, he put an IV in.  I wonder if the anesthetic -drop was necessary, consdering how much I enjoy having needles put in me, but I've never had an IV put in, so maybe this is part of the normal experience.  The dentist put 5 syringes-worth of fluid in me; at the end of the series, I asked him why he didn't use a bigger CC syringe (seems more efficient), and he said each of the syringes contained a different kind of medicine.  Alright.  I started to feel a little light headed so I laid my head back to rest on the chair.  All the rest is a blur after that.  I vaguely remember some sort of conversation about shivering after recovering from anesthesia.  I remember science lover holding my hand.  I remember stopping at the pharmacy.  I remember science lover telling me I'd already told him something twice before, and that short term memory loss was a normal part of the process.  I vaguely remember walking to my apartment.  My complete memories returned after getting to my apartment.  I found a receit for gas with my medicine, so I wonder if we stopped for gas after the procedure.   

The whole experience has been very easy, and it only cost me $300 (it cost my insurance quite a bit more).  Not too bad to get rid of hallitosis and the problem of biting the inside of my cheek with my wisdom teeth.

I came across a strange sight this morning.  I found a nearly dead chipmonk on my floor.  I'm not sure how it got there, whether sama brought it in sometime yesterday when I had the door open, or if it somehow came in through another unfortunate path.  At first, I thought the creature was dead.  I picked it up and felt a slighth muscle twitch in my hands.  The poor creature was still alive.  Uff.   I gave it to Sama -- he had no interest in the chipmonk.  There was a big gash in the chipmonk's undersection, including its thigh.  It was probably in pain, and would not heal on its own.  What to do?  I decided the responsible thing would be to put the animal out of its misery.  I thought letting it slowly die outside would be cruel.  Had I a BB gun, I would have shot it.

Instead, I drowned the creature in a bowl of warm water.  It seemed to hold its breath a long time.  It sat in the water for what seemed like forever, not moving at all.  Then is started to twich, every so lightly.  Probably 3-4 minutes passed until it finally stopped twitching......when it died, it stretched its back legs and crossed its front legs in front of its body.  Maybe I should have tried to break its spine, but I didn't know how similar it would be to killing a mouse.  I think I did the right thing.  Who knows how long it sat underneath my sewing table, suffering.


I tried making Laurel leaves for a hood, but I'm only semi-pleased with the results.  I might try to do some subtle embroidery, instead. 


I finished Memoires of a Geisha today.  It was a really good book. 


I want to get a new cell phone.  I don't want an i-phone.  Any advice for a phone with GPS, one that I can have access to the internetz and e-mail.  A blackberry, maybe? 



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Random Meme

Sep. 13th, 2009 | 05:54 pm

1. What's the first thing you wash in the shower?
My breasts.

2. What color is your favorite hoodie?
Blue -a  medieval hood.

3. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?

4. Do you plan outfits?

5. How are you feeling RIGHT now?

6. What’s the closest thing to you that's red?
Part of a square on my crazy quilt.

7. Tell me about the last dream you remember having.
I have so many, but none recently come to mind.

8. Did you meet anybody new today?
Nope.  I am recouperating from having my wisdom teeth pulled.

9. What are you craving right now?

10. Do you floss daily?
Twice a day.

11. What comes to mind when I say cabbage?
Cole slaw.

12. Are you emotional?
Yes, and I try to suppress it.

13. Have you ever counted to 1000?
Yes with the aid of a colony counter.

14. Do you bite into your ice cream or just lick it?
Lick it.

15. Do you like your hair?

16. Do you like yourself?
Most of the time.

17. Would you go out to eat with George W. Bush?

18. What are you listening to right now?
The Return of the King

19. Are your parents strict?

20. Would you go skydiving?

21. Do you like cottage cheese?
Nummy.  Love it.  I get the low calorie stuff.  A great diet food. High protein, high calcium.

22. Have you ever met a celebrity?
Sort of, if you consider the calligapher for LOTR a celebrity.

23. Do you rent movies often?

24. Is there anything sparkly in the room you're in?
No.  Unless polished marble is sparkly, then yes.

25. How many countries have you visited?
Many.  Canada, France, Nice, Italy, the Neatherlands, Japan. 

26. Have you made a prank phone call?
When I was a child.

27. Ever been on a train?

28. Brown or white eggs?
Free range farmers market eggs.

29. Do you have a cell phone?

30. Do you use chap stick?
All the time.

31. Do you own a gun?

32. Can you use chop sticks?

33. Who are you going to be with tonight?
I'm going to be alone, like every night.  Sigh.

34. Are you too forgiving?
Yes.  But once I give something up, I can give it up forever.

35. Ever been in love?
Yes.  I wish it didn't happen.

36. What is your best friend(s) doing tomorrow?
Vacation, work, graduate school.

37. Ever have a cream puff?

38. Last time you cried?
At my Laureling ceremony.  I cried like a little, little baby.

39. What was the last question you asked?
"Sama, where are you?  Sama, Sama, Sama?"

40. Favorite time of the year?

41. Do you have any tattoos?
Nope, but I have many piercings.

42. Are you sarcastic?
I try not to be.  I never have the right tone.

43. Have you ever seen The Butterfly Effect?

44. Ever walked into a wall?

45. Favorite color?

46. Have you ever slapped someone?

47. Is your hair curly?

48. What was the last CD you bought?
Something from Wolgemut.

49. Do looks matter?
For some things, yes.  Not always.

50. Could you ever forgive a cheater?
Cheating is pretty bad.  It would always be in th back of my mind.  I much prefer honesty.

51. Is your phone bill sky high?

52. Do you like your life right now?
Yes. I miss my family and friends, terribly. 

53. Do you sleep with the TV on?
No.  I hardly ever watch TV.

54. Can you handle the truth?

55. Do you have good vision?

58. The last person you held hands with?
My science lover.

59. What are you wearing?
Grey sweat pants, green sweater, and my bathrobe, with wool stockings.  I need to feel comfy.

60. What is your favorite animal?

61. Where was your profile picture taken?
My profile pick on FB was taking on my brother's farm.

62. Can you hula hoop?
Not to save my life.

63. Do you have a job?

64. What was the most recent thing you bought?
$90 worth of tea.  I like tea. 

65. Have you ever crawled through a window?

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Asparagus Orgy

May. 16th, 2009 | 05:04 pm

I am drunk from asparagus. Yum!


Can't wait to pee!

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I keep thinking....

Mar. 22nd, 2009 | 10:22 pm

about the go-to-sleep-and-never-wake-up berries.  I wish this would stop running throug my mind.

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Step 1 out of 100 in creating a clone army

Mar. 15th, 2009 | 12:06 pm

Identify a way to ablate the fear response in members of your army.    Okay, this isn't too terribly new, in that I saw a video of mice attempting to attack a cat about a year or so ago (with this same principal)........ but it's still fun.


10 years ago, intense fear and stress resulted in me scarfing down anything in site.  Now, I have discovered that intense fear and anxiety kills my appetite.  My stomach hurts today, from worry. 


I will most likely be defending my dissertation in one months time.  Don't expect to see/hear/read much of/from me.   Godz, that's an ungly way to write that idea. 


When I write the word "pseudogenization," I can't help but think of the word "pseudogenitalization."  I don't think this is a word, but I think it, nonetheless.  I know my fellow grad students will be thinking this when I give my defense. 

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How much do you value

Mar. 10th, 2009 | 01:41 pm

your freedom to associate?

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Maybe this is what the government means about creating jobs

Mar. 10th, 2009 | 08:45 am

So, I'm all about there being more jobs for scientists.  Yay jobs!   But this job isn't quite what I had in mind.  It seems as if government -- people -- want a blank check signed with the sum "This product is safe."  That's..... impossible to define.  Even "This product is mostly safe" .... provides a lot less comfort and has little meaning, too.   

I guess I do want the biotech industry to have human safety (and environmental safety) in mind when developing new transgenic plants............... but........ we weren't asking this of selective breeders (much more favorably-perceived form of biotechnology) 100 years ago, and the world didn't become fracked (well, it did, but more so because of over-consupmption and poor management of natural resources) from plant biotechnology, and they didn't produce ice-nine (at least none that they've released into the environment). 

I guess it's a job.  And yay for more jobs!  But.........I wish they could spend their time developing products, instead of finding creative ways to work through government regulations. 

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